—- do you guys see this? i hope you all see this because this is how you solve shit civilly ; you talk it out. anyway, first of all, no i’m not going to apologize for calling you a ‘bitch’ though i will agree it was uncalled for and move on but, i will say that to what you’re feeling right now, that is exactly how i felt when i wrote those responses.
i cannot speak for the anons, or why they even come to me — probably because of what we discussed and went through on my other blog even tho i will say it wasn’t a god damn invitation to start sending me hate about a person behind their back when i already have problems with said person — but i can speak for my friend and say that she has more of the same issues with you and hasn’t bothered to talk it out with you and i’m talking about things way back when i still had noirsterben. my problem now is that i don’t get why people are coming to me asking why ‘i don’t write with you’ or ‘man i hate this person’ like i have all the answers to why they are so enraged. again i don’t know about the anons. it’s not so much i get angry at the mention of you, if you were also referring to me, but the fact that every time someone mentions your name in my ask box it leaves a sour taste in my mouth. i’ve done my best to just ignore these messages, delete them and left you alone but it has come to my attention that if i don’t speak up and address this problem myself, it’ll just be an endless circle of private burn book confessions that i never asked for but have to deal with because people can’t get off anon and approach you themselves.
there are no hard feelings here. i understand if you’re angry, because i am just as angry and i don’t blame you for this shit that has just accumulated over the months but if people can’t take responsibility for their own emotions i’m at least, not going to sit idly by and bathe in my anger because that’s just fucking wrong. right now i’m not even angry at you but the fact that i had to talk this stupid shit out with you, and lose my cool because i have been used as a ranting box for over three months. thing is, we had enough respect for each other to just leave each other alone so hopefully we can continue that again now that this has been addressed. maybe we can write together, someday, the offer still stands like i’ve mentioned before in my post eons ago, i don’t know but right now i suggest just making yourself a nice hot cocoa to calm yourself down. because man, i need some calming down.
‘there are no hard feelings’ says the person who continues to call me a bitch for ????????? no reason at the moment? don’t really know what you’re playing at with that, especially considering how you sorta keep saying you’ve no problem with me yet treat me like that. fucking hell, this is the kind of shit i have to listen to when i’m nothing but polite and courteous to you? wow.
also, you do realize that this is literally all coming from you, right? and your friend? because i’ve never gotten any anons about you. at all. ever. not a single one asking if i thread or not with you, no one bitching to me about you, nothing. and, as far as i know, you’re the only one getting these messages about me – which you’ve never posted.
you do realize how suspicious this sounds, right?
cards on the table, it sounds like you’ve got a huge fucking problem with me and the only way you can actually 'talk about it’ is by posting about it publicly and @metioning me instead of solving things privately, and that you need to move on and start treating people with respect, since i’m getting none from you.
there’s really no 'endless cycle of private burn book confessions’. there’s you and the anons that did not come from me or from anyone i’m buddies with, and i’m fairly sure that if they’re so insistent on you threading with me, that they’d ask me about it. instead, there’s this little personal vendetta you seem to have against me even tho i’ve done nothing but apologize to you about how my words made you feel back when you were still noirsterben.
i’m not angry, so please stop patronizing me with the whole hot cocoa thing, i really don’t care about this that much. i left you alone, i was content to keep it that way and keep things ic if you wanted to do things, but instead you put me on the spot by @mentioning me, reply to my asks the way you did, and continue to call me names. if the anons are such a problem, blacklist my url. really simple.
civilly, yes, but i’m really not getting that from you.
